i can’t explain

there just aren’t words

for the way I’ve been feeling

for the thoughts I’ve been thinking

for the things I’ve been saying

but I have to try

because in my trying I can find what I’ve unknowingly been looking for

someone once said there are battles fought in our subconscious

those battles leave scars

scars that reflect on our senses

 

i know it’s true

because sometimes I scratch without knowing why
 and then i realize
because i bleed and feel

and through the pain

i learn to recognize the original weakness

the resultant battle

 

- i begin to heal -

next time I’ll be ready

and maybe just maybe I’ll win the next one:)

- love -

i’m not sure i understood,

even now i know i don’t fully understand,

but i’m beginning to.

it’s not about me.

it takes time, it’s a process.

love doesn’t come all at once but over time.

it comes from wishing, dreaming, praying

and then serving, nurturing and cherishing.

when that love comes it is powerful.

it can heal all wounds.

it’s the type of love that transcends time and space.

it opens every chamber of the heart and soul, 

it shows the eyes how to truly see and the ears to truly hear what matters most.

this love makes life worth living.

it makes the hard times a little easier and the good times sweet.

this love speaks peace and whispers music in the wind.

it makes the eyes leak tears of joy and the body shake.

for in this love another world is glimpsed.

a world that is encompassed with this love; 

His love. 
because He is there.

sometimes i anguish because i long to be there - but it takes time.

for now i am content with the glimpses i am given.

as i nurture, and cherish His love for me and mine for Him,

i see that same love for all his children, 

and my heart is expanded - to love them.

the sweetness of it all is so great;  that sometimes i cannot seem to bare it.

one of the best days of my life.